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Country Song

When all my tears have dried, wanna wake up by your side.
Wanna hold you in my arms, never let you leave.
When the sun comes burning through, wanna be holding on to you.
Baby I'll never let you go, hope you believe.

Cause from the very first time you told me that you loved me,
to the very first night we parked out in your Chevy
and made love in the glow of your stereo.
That's when I knew I'd be the one with you forever,
I knew we had a love that nobody could sever.
And I've known this all along, we're living in a country song.

Driving the back roads with you all summer,
holding hands with my dashboard drummer,
Singing along to the words on the radio.
Holding me tight when the lightning flashes,
kissing me softly when the thunder crashes,
pulling me down right there on the living room floor.

Cause from the very first time you told me that you loved me,
to the very first night we parked out in your Chevy
and made love in the glow of your stereo.
That's when I knew I'd be the one with you forever,
I knew we had a love that nobody could sever.
And I've known this all along, we're living in a country song.

And when I think ahead to where we'll be someday,
I still see us together growing old and gray,
and we're rocking our grandbabies and we're right where we belong.
And I pray that when they're older they find a love,
and they know that it's the one that they've been dreaming of.
I hope they're as lucky as we were, living their country song.

To A Dork (6/10/11)

T.A.J. -
If I could change one thing about you, I wouldn't change a thing. Everything about you is perfect. Everything you do, everything you say. Everything you've done, everything you regret. It's all part of who you are. It has made you the man I've fallen in love with. Every fear I have melts away when I look into those beautiful blue eyes. I could get lost in those eyes. It's amazing to me that I have been given something so beautiful. I am utterly astounded that you love me as much as I love you. I look into those eyes and wonder if I am dreaming. How could something so beautiful choose me? What do you see in me? If I seem insecure, I am. It is just so hard for me to believe that after nearly 22 years of being alone, someone might actually like me. And not just anyone, but the perfect one. There are so many average people out there, and they are fine. I don't have anything against them. But I could never be happy with one. But there is just something about you. I'm not even sure what it is, but somehow I can look at you, and I just know...
You keep saying it's probably too soon to start talking about living together and getting married, but is it really? The talk of it doesn't scare me like it should. Can being crazy about someone make you clinically insane? I would walk down the aisle tomorrow without a second thought. Could it be the biggest mistake of my life? Most certainly. But I am willing to take the risk.
When I'm not with you, it's like a piece of my heart is missing. Something is just...off. I reach for your hand, but there's nothing there for me to hold. I lay my head on my favorite pillow, but I can't sleep because it's not your shoulder. I am addicted to you. I wake up hungover from an overdose of you. I catch hints of your scent on my hair and my mind wanders to the night before. How beautiful you looked in the glow of the dashboard. The way you sounded when you asked if I wanted to. The way I shivered when I said yes. The way I felt the moment I realized there was no going back. The way we laughed when we almost got caught. The time we hiked to the top of the world and you told me you loved me. The way I knew I meant it when I said I loved you too.
I could memorize your heartbeat, because my head belongs on your chest. And I hope that I am lucky enough to be the one who is still with you when it stops. Because mine will know, and it will stop too. Regardless of where my life may take me, you will always be my first true love. That is one thing that no one can ever take away from me.
Please don't ever change. Always be the boy I am in love with right now. The boy who loves his kids, is happy being himself, isn't ashamed of what he's done, and isn't afraid to take a risk. Always be the boy who parks in conspicuous places, an leaves the dashboard lights on. Always be the boy who is crazy enough to take me on the living room floor with my family asleep upstairs. Always be the boy who doesn't care about my messy house. Who will watch How to Train Your Dragon and play Mario Kart on a first date, and follow it up with a make out session during George Lopez. Always be the boy who is satisfied watching the 9:00 news when all the other couples are down town drinking. Always be the boy who develops a Southern accent when he watches bull riding. Who kisses me the first time he almost beats me at Mario Kart. Always be the boy who calls me beautiful, even thought it's not true. Please, always be the boy who has stolen my heart. The boy who brings tears to my eyes whenever we're apart.
Please, don't ever change.

Thoughts about a soul

I'm not what you see.
The body is but a chamber
for the soul. A soul
So powerful, it must be
Bound by flesh, run by
Blood.
Pulsing,
Pounding,
Beating,
Boiling.
You can hurt my body,
But you cannot harm
My Soul.
Scars, beauty, and pain,
Are only skin deep.
And only when the body dies
Is the soul truly free.

To be continued

I'm scared to close my eyes
Cause when they open
There's no compromise.

I hate to fall asleep
Cause when I wake up
I find I'm in too deep.

Cause last week I met you for the very first time.
And Tuesday you kissed me and I can't help it, I'm
Thinkin 'bout you every night and when I wake up
I find that they're imaginary dreams I make up.

Cause I met you in the skies and the green that's in your eyes
Surpassed the beauty of the heavens and the earth combined.
And we danced among the stars and I realized your scars
Make you even more incredible than .

Unfinished thought

I knew there wasn't logic,
The reason wasn't there.
Compare me to the ones
You're more inclined to see.
They're everything I wish to be.

Senseless to keep hoping.
Life is a dirty game.
Shame I can't be perfect.
Had I been more clever
Would have spared me this endeavor.

But reason and logic
Be damned tonight. In dreams,
It seems it is all right.
A life as it should be
Blessed with passion and amity.



 

Hurt

Is life just naturally complicated, or do we complicated it ourselves?
Is it our fault when things don't go as planned, or is some Shakespearean fate responsible?
Is there someone up there trying to help us, or someone laughing every time we mess up?
If I were someone else, would my life be easier?

So many questions awaiting nonexistent answers.
Such an empty heart beats, softly, a name.
A wandering mind on a quiet night,
wondering weakly if she's to blame.

Is there a bigger plan in place?
In fate a heart grows strong.
But if it fails, a body weak,
for in tempo lives the song.

 

Just a song

Her hazel eyes sparkled and her hands shook,
as he held out his hand, and hers he took.
And she knew in her mind
he was everything she'd hoped to find
and more...

And as they were talking in the low light,
everything around him was so bright.
And it was easy to forget
that they'd only just met
because she adored him.

Because in her mind they were building castles,
and his blue eyes were shining, like the New Zealand sea.
And his beauty created the sunset.
And the sun and the water were all she could see.
She could drown in the ocean,
or burn in the fire,
but she wasn't afraid,
she could only admire...

And they parted ways with no farewell,
and her hands were still shaking, and her heart swelled.
And she wanted to believe
there wasn't reason to grieve,
that she'd see him again...

Because in her mind they were building castles,
and his blue eyes were shining, like the New Zealand sea.
And his beauty created the sunset.
And the sun and the water were all she could see.
She could drown in the ocean,
or burn in the fire,
but she wasn't afraid,
she could only admire...

And when she woke in the morning she felt it.
Possibilities gone, and the truth hit.
And she knew he was gone,
and she couldn't go on
without him...

And in her mind the castles were falling
and she was crying blue tears into the New Zealand sea.
And his beauty got lost in the sunset.
And the sun and the water were all she could see.
She could drown in that ocean,
or burn in that fire,
she was only afraid
that their love would expire.
How could something so powerful
make her so weak?
She fell to the floor
unable to speak...

Her hazel eyes sparkled and her hands shook,
as she pulled out the photo that they took.
And she knew in her mind
he was everything she'd hoped to find
and more...

 

Okay, I get it.
That's how it is with you, eh?
All I wanted was a friendship
Don't know what else you expect me to say.

So what's your problem?
Can't give me the time of day?
Waited months for you to accept
Then you turn around and throw it away.

Well, don't worry moley goalie.
.I won't bother you again
I just wanted to be friends
Never wanted to offend.
So, you can block me as a friend,
but you're just playing pretend,
because everybody knows,
you really should be blocking goals.
And judging by your record
and the points the other teams scored,
you can't block a single puck.
Doubt you're even a Canuck.
And you're acting pretty cocky
for how bad you are at hockey.
Maybe your facebook's too distracting
and it's slowing your reacting.
You should give up all the hacking
and start working on your stacking,
cause when the puck is in your net
you're probably going to regret
that you can block me as a friend
but you can't block a shot on goal.


Can you imagine the excitement that I had that day,
When I clicked the red bubble and read what it had to say?

And on the next day, looked again, to make sure it was for real,
only to find, your acceptance you had already repealed!

*Repeat Chorus*

But I'm so over you and your conceited goalie ways.
Cause there's a new goalie in town, who's set my heart ablaze.
It's not the flames on his pads that are melting the ice.
It's the way he blocks those goals without having to think twice.

The Sublime

And shadows are nigh
My lids heavy
It's you I'm thinking of
Tonight.

And I know that sleep
Will evade me
Or your sweet face will haunt
My dreams.

The Desolation Division

Lost in an unrelenting labyrinth
Of a chilling, hiemeal, spell.
Searching for a sultry scintillation,
Lost. My Winter is eternal.